Ok no hehe but I starting to buy christmas stuff for my christmas next letters (〜￣▽￣)〜 some cards for .43 cents each whit its envelopes and some stickers for .43 and .16 cents. I think I need to buy more because I have 15 penpals at the moment and I don't want someone to be without Christmas letter (◕‿◕✿)
I've been busy lately. I think my life is finally taking a path(?). For more than five months I was severely depressed because I didn't know what to do with my life and I actually didn't understand why I was alive. But until now I think things are getting better for me and my family. It has been a very difficult year for all of us with so many problems everywhere. My grandmother passed away recently and will be very sad to spend Christmas and New Year without her. There has been much family breakdown, money problems, diseases, also I still miss local friends that I loved very much but they rejected me for not meeting their expectations, and my depression and disinterest in life and do nothing about it.
But for now the storm is over and there is a bit of calm finally. I'm busy with my online shop, preparing many
delayed letters, also I want to go to many museums in downtown too, and I have enough patients by now to get some good money for my hobbies hehe. The next weekend I'll go to a little vacation with my cousins, I want to swim! And perhaps there is a chance to go to New York in December to visit my family I have not seen in over 5 years! I have to admit that the idea of boarding a plane terrifies me a lot. I have never flown and I'm scared of heights! My anxiety is diminished these days so I hope has diminished enough by then ( ・~・)